August 11, 2003
When it's quiet and dark and I have found my cocoon for the night, that is when the real awareness starts. I am assuming that I have a pretty high threshold for pain. Maybe I have developed one over the past few months. I haven't had any pain meds for quite some time now and I still hurt in one way or another pretty much all the time. There is really no way to get around it. It is just a part of my life that I am hoping will eventually go away. Until then, I suffer behind my smile.