October 16, 2003
It's so hard to know what to think, what to do. I can't tell what you think - I can hardly tell what I do. I don't know what I need anymore. I need something, though, someone. With what and who are answers that evade me. I only wish that someone would tell me what it is and then give it to me. Show me where I am and what I want and who I need. Show me what I can give and do and think to allow myself to smile. I'm so needy but I want so badly to give.