October 23, 2003
It's not worth it - I'm too fucking tired. I can be lazy, I can give in to my desires tonight. I can buckle, I can crumble, and I might not be quite as content with myself, but it will be made up for in cheap, gratifying sleep and wasted time. Fuck the calculus homework. Fuck going to recitation tomorrow. And you know why? Because I can. Because I got a 97 on the exam and I am going to fall back on that to keep my grades up. But I need to be smarter on future occasions -- push myself forward.