April 26, 2004
I tried to not look for her. I gave into temptation and searched. She was not to be found. Her absence certainly made me drink more. I passed a Monday evening hopping from bar to bar. I walked in and there was always one person who bellowed, "Bob Show!" It came out a few times. I was rambling; the crowd began to giggle. "How can this guy (pointing at myself) be this cool…" (nods of agreement) "…and yet (pause for dramatic effect) such an asshole!" Applause as I met the eye of a man I've insulted more than treated humanely.