At the supposedly innocent age of twelve, I'd already noticed that people with obsessions tend to mix them with religious phobias. The mentally ill, i.e. bipolar, schizophrenics, psychotics, we have a way of distorting God and worst fears. I believe it starts with the black and white thinking pattern. It's black or white. It's perfect or sinful. We will live or we will die. And of course, since we get lost in our dark thoughts, we condemn ourselves. Unless we find something else to obsess over. Or some of us can multitask our guilt feelings, tight spaces and live burials.