July 9, 2007
The watercolors that adorned my walls when he was here have since been taken down and left in a neat stack on one of the end tables next to my sectional couch. I haven't put them up again ever since I had those two large boxes in my living room last month. As tempting as it was to take everything down and throw everything into them, the more I did so, the more I envisioned the boxes as two enormous blackholes. Ever since I've unpacked I've been more orderly, calculating--out of what I perceive to be utter necessity, now.