This is the first time in my life I've ever been truly frightened about my future; frightened that I won't be able to find the necessary work in order to prevent starvation, living on the streets, and a complete loss of dignity. I am ashamed of how much time I've let slip by, and if there were a way for me to retrace time, I would. It's difficult for me to say these things aloud, because so much more should have been so much better sorted by now; but, they aren't, and I must live with how things have become.