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February 5, 2008
Control. After spending years of energy on making myself into the kind of person who doesn't rely on anyone for anything, it's both liberating and terrifying to hear someone say "Don't worry."

'Cause that's what I do. I worry. In relationships and in daily life - I send my brain out on scouting missions for every possible avenue to disappointment. Occasional shakes of that cynicism rattle me every now and then. Like when your body is relaxing into sleep and then suddenly jerks you awake. I think of every chick I know that's ever said "Oh, MY man's not like THAT."