I'm crazy behind already. Why do I sign up for this every year? Ever since 2003 I've been pushing myself to write seriously. I used to write for fun, a past time, something I had to do so I did it. 2003 was the turning point — joined a writing group, slaved through National Novel Month, and began reading about writing. I feel I know less than I did. The vision of what I want hasn't changed just somehow it has become harder. More to keep track of, less time to apply myself; seems unlikely that I chose the wrong path.