July 1, 2008
As I'm shattering my stoic barriers that keep me safe and sound, I'm wondering: is it worth it? Will this time be any different? Can this phone call change anything that hasn't already been attempted before? Will there be medications again, will there be apathy and accusations, missed school days, fake sick leaves, dropped threads, lost friends? Is this my opportune moment to make myself right again, or is this just something I've forced myself into, in some foolish hope that everything will turn out alright? Chewing at my lip, I flipped open my cell and dialled the dreaded number.