02/01 Direct Link
Mondays are so boring to me. Basically I went to class and went home right after it was over. I really need to find a part time job because I get so bored when I'm at home doing absolutely nothing. I really wish some of my clients would call me or text me so I can work a little, I will keep praying about it. Someone will end up needing me soon because I know they want some free time away from their children. I know this is random but I can't wait to go on my trip next week!
02/02 Direct Link
So I've been waiting for "The People v. O.J. Simpson" Show to come and I finally got to watch it. I thought it was a movie but then come to find out its actually a show which I think is even better. I'm pretty excited for next Tuesday to come because it left me on the edge of my set. I never really looked into the whole case so its kind of new to me. All I know is that he was found innocent because the glove didn't fit but the first episode has me thinking he did it.
02/03 Direct Link
The weather was awesome today. Feels good to sit out in the sun and be able to get a little tan before I go up north next week. Hopefully I can do it again this weekend! I just remembered that the Florida State Fair starts Friday.. Lord knows I love to go there to eat all the different foods. If you know me you know i love to eat a lot! Pretty excited about going on Saturdays, hoping my plans don't get messed up. This is so random but I seriously need a new phone because mine is acting up.
02/04 Direct Link
I told myself I would start going to the gym and I've been slipping. It sucks that I haven't been back since last week which is bad. I like the gym but I'm lazy which doesn't help me at all. I want to gain weight but I know for a fact I won't gain any weight if I don't go to the gym and if I don't eat right. I love junk food and that doesn't help me at all. I have to do better! When I come back from New Jersey I will try to get back in there.
02/05 Direct Link
My attitude sucks! Sometimes I think I need counseling because I have a bad temper. Everyone tells me I need to work on it asap. I've tried to work on it but it just gets worse and I gave up on trying to get better. People just get on my nerves. Maybe as I get older my attitude will get better. My mom tells me I'll end up alone if I don't change and I usually just laugh at her but then again apart of me feels that she's right so I tend to think about talking to my doctor.
02/06 Direct Link
I don't understand how security let people go inside of the clubs, bars or strip clubs with guns. Someone lost their life last night all because of the security not checking people correctly and letting a gun pass them by. Its sad because now someone has to bury their young son do to gun violence and someones stupid actions. I didn't know the young man but every time I seen him somewhere he always had a smile on his face and seemed so happy. It hurts my heart to see things like this happen to people. He didn't deserve that!
02/07 Direct Link
It's been one of those days today. Tried to go shopping and I just couldn't find anything at all and to make it even worse it was freezing cold outside. I can't stand the cold weather. After I took a nap I felt better and was able to go to watch the super bowl. It broke my heart to watch Cam Newton lose. He deserved to get that win but of course we all knew Peyton Manning would get the win. At least the food at the house was great! I've been craving meatballs and finally got to eat some.
02/08 Direct Link
So today I started my math class and the teacher seems pretty good. I hate math with a passion but I'm going to try my hardest to learn it. Hopefully I can pass the class at least with a C because that's all I need. I don't want to have to retake the class for nothing in this world. Anyway, I need to get more things for New Jersey and New York. I'm so last minute it never fails I always wait untill the last minute to do something that should've already been done. I need to get it together.
02/09 Direct Link
Spent the whole day with my love. Finally got most of my clothes for our vacation. Took me forever to find everything in the mall. I hate shopping because I can never find anything when it's time for me to actually get things. So, we were at his mothers house and I looked at the weather for Paterson this week, I almost died! It's going to be -2 Saturday night. I thought about canceling for a moment but then I got back to my normal self and said "No, girl you are going on this trip". I'm going to freeze.
02/10 Direct Link
Work, work, work, work, work, work He said me haffi Work, work, work, work, work, work! He see me do mi Dirt, dirt, dirt, dirt, dirt, dirt! So me put in Work, work, work, work, work, work When you ah gon' Learn, learn, learn, learn, learn Meh nuh care if him Hurt, hurt, hurt, hurt, hurting ...I seriously can't get this song out of my head. I probably sing this song 100 times a day. I know it's sad but honestly it's probably one of the hottest songs out right now. I dance to it every time I hear it.
02/11 Direct Link
I can't seem to keep up with this 100 words everyday. I try to remember every night before I go to sleep but somehow I seem to forget every night. I made a mistake and wrote the wrong entry for a specific day because I wasn't paying attention. I really have to pay attention more because I clearly don't....... Anyways, I'm ready to take another vacation really soon or maybe just get away trip with my guy for a weekend and go to the beach because I seriously need a tan really bad. I'm thinking Miami for our next trip.
02/12 Direct Link
Finally, I'm leaving for New Jersey. I've been waiting for this day for some weeks now and it's actually here now. My boyfriend has never been on an airplane so today will be his first day. I'm ready to have fun and my grandparents that I haven't seen in about 4 years. Hopefully I can see my sisters while I'm up. I need time to slow down while I'm on vacation because I want to be able to enjoy my time away from home. I know for a fact I'm not going to want to come back home on Tuesday.
02/13 Direct Link
A special world for you and me A special bond one cannot see It wraps us up in its cocoon And holds us fiercely in its womb. Its fingers spread like fine spun gold Gently nestling us to the fold Like silken thread it holds us fast Bonds like this are meant to last. And though at times a thread may break A new one forms in its wake To bind us closer and keep us strong In a special world, where we belong. By Sheelagh Lennon. I was reading love poems and I just fell in love with this one.
02/14 Direct Link
So the 14th of February is of course Valentine's Day... Anyways, I never really cared for this so called holiday like all of the other women do. To me it's just another regular day. I feel like everyday should be Valentine's day when your in a relationship or married. Most women disagree with me but I don't really understand why. I don't think a woman should wait for a specific day to get a nice gift or flowers and candy. That's just really stupid to me! I like surprises and "just because" gifts. That's how I was raised and taught.
02/15 Direct Link
I'm so happy it snowed today! We went to NYC to see the city because my boyfriend hasn't been there nor has he seen snow. I love it when it snows, I don't get to see it every year so I get excited every time I see it. We went to China town and Little Italy which was my first time seeing it. I hate the way China town smells! Time square is so beautiful, I wish we had something like that back home. We have to leave tomorrow and it breaks my heart to have to leave my family.
02/16 Direct Link
Today was such a beautiful day! I got to see my boy friend which I haven't seen in a few days. Funny thing is, when he left my house this afternoon I had a delivery come 3 mins later. I didn't know anything and I was super surprised when the edible arrangement delivery truck pulled up to my house. I thought they were going to my neighbors house and come to find out the man walked to my yard and mentioned my name. When he gave my the box and an "I LOVE YOU" balloon, I couldn't stop from smiling.
02/17 Direct Link
If I could have just one wish, I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my skin, and the feel of your heart beating with mine... Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you. By Courtney Kuchta! ..My best friend keeps telling me that I'm so in love and she's right! I never felt like this before and yeah everyone says that when in a relationship but boy oh boy I'm in love!!!!!!!!!
02/18 Direct Link
I have to get it together! I want to start my own home day care but I procrastinate so much and I need to stop it as soon as possible. I know I can do it but I keep holding it off for the next day to get all of my information. I'm probably really close to getting my licence but I keep playing. I want it to have it all together by August. I love children so much, I know I can have my own and care for children the way they should be cared for and loved as well.
02/19 Direct Link
It was true when my teachers used to tell me to enjoy high school and our teens. I wanted to hurry up and get out of school not knowing that when it's all over the real world begins immediately. Sometimes I wish I could start all over again and just cherish it because elementary, middle and high school were probably the best years in my life. Not necessarily the best years but it sure felt like it. Being an adult means having real responsibilities. Bills on top of bills and having a job is real life and it's no joke.
02/20 Direct Link
Before I met you, I thought I was happy, and I was, but I had never known the rich contentment, deep satisfaction, and total fulfillment you brought to me when you came into my life. Before I met you, I felt a lot of things, good things, but I had never experienced the indescribably intense feelings I have for you. Before I met you, I thought I knew myself, and I did, but you looked deep inside me and found fresh new things for us to share. Before I met you, I thought I knew about love, but I didnít, until I met you. By Joanna Fuchs
02/21 Direct Link
Work, work, work, work, work, work He said me haffi Work, work, work, work, work, work! He see me do mi Dirt, dirt, dirt, dirt, dirt, dirt! So me put in Work, work, work, work, work, work Ner ner ner ner ner ner! When you a gon' learn, learn, learn, learn, learn! Before the tables turn turn turn turn turn turn! .. There I go with this song again. I just can't get it out of my head. Even though I don't know what she says in the song I still love it. The beat gets me to get up and dance.
02/22 Direct Link
You give me the world, ooh And everything that I've hoped for Since I've been your girl Oh, my whole life has been much better than ever before You got a tender sweet love, yes you do That weakens me and takes over me whenever we touch Baby, that's just why I love you so much Baby, that's just why I can't get enough Baby, that's just why I love you so much I love only you Now, you say that you're down, oh You said you won't play around, no, no, not with my heart... I love this song!
02/23 Direct Link
You gotta go and get angry at all of my honesty You know I try but I don't do too well with apologies I hope I don't run out of time. Could someone call a referee? 'Cause I just need one more shot at forgiveness I know you know that I made those mistakes maybe once or twice And by once or twice I mean maybe a couple of hundred times So let me, oh, let me redeem, oh, redeem, oh, myself tonight 'Cause I just need one more shot, second chances Yeah.... I was told I'm in love with Justin Bieber's music!
02/24 Direct Link
I'm about to be so random today. I love my mom! I love food! I hate rude people. I want more money in my savings account. I love the fact that it takes my phone forever to die. I love my daddy and my brother! My dog stinks and she needs a bath. I love to paint and read love poems. I hate to shop but love to have new clothes in my closet. Wish I had my own house and home day care. I want a G-Wagon but their too expensive. I love fruit but I hate cantaloupes.
02/25 Direct Link
More random stuff.. I need my hair done. Wish my hair would grow faster. Where is my favorite blue shirt? I'm obsessed with shoes and heels. I want to see the movie Triple 9. All I need is you boy! Writing and texting my best friend at the same time. I'm hungry! All I want is you. I love you like you'll never know. I sit alone and think about so many things. I need to make a photo album of me and my boyfriend. My hair needs to be washed and cut but only the ends so it can grow.
02/26 Direct Link
Romantic relationships are the spice of life. They make us feel alive in a way that nothing else can. Genuine romance exists when two people show that they care for each other by doing small acts for each other that show love and affection. It makes us feel loved and cared for when we know that our significant other is thinking about how to give us the most pleasure. Romance is the key to keeping the sparks flying. Without it, any relationship will soon lose its shine.... I read that poem somewhere and totally agree with what has been said.
02/27 Direct Link
I'll do more random stuff today. I have to let my phone go sometimes because I'm so addicted to it. I have to do painting with a twist again. I like the rapper Phora now. Justin Bieber's music is so good. I want all of his albums. I miss my family up north. I should start planning my birthday trip. Something keeps telling me to not give up and to keep trying. I have to stop being anti social. I'm a family girl. I want to get married and have a baby one day. I'm going to eat my strawberries.
02/28 Direct Link
I cleaned up the whole house today and felt so good about it. Knowing that my baby will come home to a clean house makes me feel good because I know he'll appreciate it and love it. Went to the mall to look for a outfit and of course I didn't find anything because I'm so difficult with finding outfits. I wish I could hire and stylist and go just call them every time I need a outfit so they can go shop for me. That won't happen though because I'm way to picky and way too difficult for that.
02/29 Direct Link
I'm so ready to party this weekend! I haven't been out in Tampa in a while so I'm pretty excited to go out and have fun with my best friend. One thing I hate about going out is that every time I always have to go to the mall just to buy a new outfit and then I have to get my hair, nails and toes done as well. My biggest problem is that I have to get something even though I know that theirs something siting in my closet with the tag still on it. It's a bad habit.