The time now - is a time, when I want to write something. When I want to write something, open a writing box first thing.
There were thoughts know….all those things which are in the mind right from getting up. Hating someone, helplessness, not getting organized, something not available, something which is not happening as per my wish...which, which one to write?
Some Things are happening: The breakfast was good, wife’s nag is in control and I duck some harsh things….taking half day leave….which one to write?
Hurray! Something written and let me feel fine.
Mother is still sleeping when we left home early today.
Jani decided to go to hospital today for some tests. She doesn't want to take ECG test.
Okay, whatever tests she wants to take let her take.
Mother is managing with only sugar control tablets which jani brings from the hospital. Mother is absolutely not troubling us. She is healthy and manages with no pain killers.
What she is irritated is the itching and the joint pains. Heavy pains.
It is not a curse or sin. It will be. As one ages one has to bear. We all have to.
Last night I did not sleep properly. When I begin to write this, I am wondering what to write!
Thankfully let me write a few words about that girl.
That girl who is in our block is studying physiotherapy course. We had called her to see our mother.
She came. She checked up the condition of my mother’s hand. She told her to lift her hand, catch some books and lift her hand later. We should prompt mother to do the exercise. Our role also is essential.
I got a satisfaction. We have done some little thing to mother.
Mind is all nonsense. The nonsense flows fluently making no meaning to life.
A guy didn't invite me to a function with a personal touch. He had invited others with a personal touch. I loathed envied unnecessarily. Yesterday I asked him whether I am not in his friends lists? He said sorry. Ho!
Today, my friends have gone to another function of another colleague. I could have gone and enjoyed the fun of going. But I didn't go. The place is far. I had to travel. Does this mean I am not friendly with people?
It is all nonsense.
I relaxed very well on Sunday. The main amusement is watching The Big Bang Theory. I have come to the third season of the serial. It is interesting to watch the human inner side portrayed with all theoretical physics, by Sheldon Cooper.
It is also lovely to relate to jolly girl Penny who is although, not smart enough like Sheldon in science or articulations, but maintains a balanced attitude towards life with her simple means.
Made a collection of 'soft kitty warm kitty...' ‘you tube’ clips. We have Mary singing for Sheldon, Penny singing for Sheldon and Sheldon for Penny.
The news that one of colleague’s wife expired, made me sad this Monday. He was working here earlier and transferred to Madurai. May God give him courage to face this loss.
One of my assistant is not well and he had to take leave. How do I manage his work?
Another man is also on leave.
Okay, things will take care of themselves as they usually do.
So, Monday has begun and three weeks of March to go. Time is flying and my superannuation is fast approaching.
Come this 28, will be completing 37 years of Railway Service.
This write up I composed yesterday
I may forget the subject tomorrow, which my mind is thinking right now.
The three worries I mentioned in last entry when the mind was weak are becoming easy when the mind becomes strong.
1) Helping my son is in my mind, so automatically something will turn up and I can definitely help him.
2)The skin doctor was consulted (help: wife) and I should apply some cream on mother's back.
3)My assistant is Santosh. He came to work today in spite of his poor health and the work went on smoothly.
Strong and weak
When I write this am I strong or weak?
Weak peeks and wants to come down.
Mind seeks strength and wants to climb up.
That is a strong point - right? ‘There...there.’
When some function is there with more number of people assembled, I feel I have nothing to contribute. I simply stare blank. People go on flattering each other. I listen to that. I can't say anything. I feel weak.
I am made for few people. I am made to spend time with my work and my pass times.
Don't be meek. Feel strong....feel strong.
Like last entry, I made time to write this at a time, when I am listening vividh bharati. The program is Hit super hit. An artist is compering the show. As I proceed, I shall record who is the artist speaking.
This one I am writing - planned?
I don't think so.
The thought of filling up the day with writing is there on the mind. The lethargic mood of Sunday makes me to evade this chore.
I won over and completed this.
The artist who was speaking in the Sunday Special program was Kamini Devi.
(Sent from my Windows Phone)
The last entry was made using Windows e mail facility. The 100 words are ready to be posted at the site. The hundred words ended with: (Sent from my Windows Phone)
Fine, Two posts are to be carried to the site.
These 100 words are being composed using google docs in my office computer. At the office the works are under control and there are no immediate chores.
Things done so far at work: 1) Discussion with officer regarding setting right Jio and Airtel bills. 2) Social conversation with a friend, who performed marriage to his daughter recently.
It is nice to write things splitting into parts.
It was five days ‘Holi Holidays’ part during the past five days and from today ‘5 working days remaining’ part in the Month of March 2019.
How many more weeks for me to kicked out from this Railway Service?
Five full weeks and 2 days in the last week. 7*5=35 + 2 = 37 days.
Nice to do math in simple things like counting days.
It is also nice to do math for the expenditure I do or my son does.
It is also nice to write something counting words.
I am writing the part of the life under the head “5 working days remaining during the last week of March 19”.
Today it turns out to be 4 working days remaining.
It is the experience during the past very many years that Mondays will be very dull, Tuesdays will be fresh, Wednesday and Thursday will feel as though work is the only thing that we are happy about in life.
Fridays will be a day to say to myself: “Let’s do this thing….next week”
It is all experiences to laugh about in the days to come… .
Continuing writing the part of life, where I have come to the retirement stage.
Today is the third piece on the part: “Only 5 working days remaining in the month of March 2019”
It sucks to be at a longer time on the computer with internet without doing something productive.
What exactly ‘sucks’ mean?
very bad, disagreeable, or disgusting.: "I love your country, but the weather sucks".
synonyms: be very bad, be awful, be terrible, be dreadful, be horrible, be very unpleasant, be abhorrent, be despicable, be contemptible, be vile, be foul, be pants, load of pants, stink
Very fast the days go. I am now writing the fourth day of the chapter: “Five working days remaining in the month of March 19”
The work is not moving very fast at the office. They are not allowing us to pass bills because there is a budget crunch. My assistants are not happy about that, neither I am.
Wife is not well. A backache, wheezing and fever. She is postponing a visit to the doctor. It is okay, but she blames me that I am confusing her as to which doctor she should go.
Hope she visits doctor today.