09/01 Direct Link
Somebody once asked me what home means to me. At the time, I didn't know how to answer the question. I mean, home is a four letter word that means where somebody lives. Home is a sided building with a roof and a family inside. But it's more than that. Home is where you grew up and grow old, it's where you had your first love, first kiss, first heartbreak. Home is the past, present, and future. Home is family. Home is love. Home is where, no matter what has happened, what you've done, everything will still be okay again.
09/02 Direct Link
Heartbreak is watching the one you love holding hands with someone else
Heartbreak is loving someone for six years and seeing them be happy with someone while you can barely even contemplate the idea of dating someone that isn't them
Heartbreak is having someone memorized like the back of your hand and knowing youíll never mean the same to them
Heartbreak is when you canít sleep because of the tears stinging the corners of your eyes
Heartbreak is hearing your heart shatter into a million pieces you know you will never be able to piece back together
09/03 Direct Link
I fell for you before I even knew what love truly was
But now, now that I'm in so deep, my heart's aching
I wish I could rewind the clock and go back to the days
When my heart didn't break every time I see your face
But I know, no matter how much it hurts, loving you this way
No matter how many times my heart shatters
I never want to change a thing
I still have not been able to decide on a name for this poem but I will soon
09/04 Direct Link
Your words echo in my mind
Like a song stuck on repeat
Like snowflakes in a snowstorm
So beautiful but so dangerous

Your eyes cut through me
As if learning my every secret
As if I'm a puppet on a string
So please, don't cut me free

Your voice remains in the silence
Like two lovers, opposite yet so alike
Like a young girl's first love
So beautiful, slowly growing in time

Your promises, forever here to stay
As if true love never fades away
As if tomorrow is here to stay
So please, never fade away
09/05 Direct Link
When you knocked upon my door
I did not answer
Still you stepped across my threshold

When I looked up upon your face
I did not see you anymore
Still, you did not care

When I asked you to please go away
I shut the door and hid away
Still you entered anyway

Now my trust in you lays
In the broken pile of my broken innocence
The one who I trusted

Now the secret is unspoken
My fear lingers within
Because you stepped across my threshold
When I asked you to please leave
09/06 Direct Link
You stood beside me when the waves crashed upon my shores
Caught in the undertow, you were my anchor
Keeping me from slipping under, keeping me afloat

You stood beside me as the army marched nearer
A hundred men against us, you were my knight in shining armor
Keeping me from running, keeping me from losing this fight

You stood beside me when the walls came crumbling down
The ashes rose ever higher, reaching towards the sky, but you were my light
Keeping me from losing my way, keeping me from danger
09/07 Direct Link
So, for my English Composition class we're doing this project for a month where we write an entry every day for an entire month on this site, I have to say, even though it's a school assignment, I do have some hopes for what I might get out of this project. Hopefully, it will improve my writing and help me to become more creative in the stories I create. For years now, I have been trying to encourage myself to write something every day. It doesn't matter if it's simply a paragraph. Hopefully this assignment helps with that.
09/08 Direct Link
You're the masterpiece, a priceless work of art
I am the empty canvas, still waiting to be discovered
You are the lifeline, tossed out to sea
I am the sailor, drowning in the abyss
You are the god above, looking down upon us all
I am the lowly figure, unworthy of your gaze
You are the waves, crashing over my head
I am the swimmer, caught in your riptide
You are the mountain, standing tall with your graceless beauty
I am the valley, forever by your side
You are the one I have been searching for
I am the one, by your side, forever unnoticed
09/09 Direct Link
I stared back, momentarily caught speechless, as I tried to form the perfect response. Palms sweaty, struggling to swallow past the knot building deep in my throat. I felt broken, tired...done. I wanted to turn the clock back to the very beginning and pretend that nothing, that none of this, not a single stupid memory, had ever happened and we had never met. But, I couldn't. It had happened. And I had lost, just like I had known I would. What else was there left to say? There were no words out there to describe how I felt. Nothing.
09/10 Direct Link
It's funny, looking back at everything that has changed all within the span of one year. In one year, I have moved from childhood to the scary, unknown world of being an adult. I have graduated high school and left the same brick building I spent the past four years attending every day. I have gone from riding the same yellow school bus every morning and afternoon to having my own car and having more freedom...and responsibilities. And everything that I've learned in the past year has taught me the same thing. Yeah, I probably should have listened better.
09/11 Direct Link
The silence of the night
The timing that isn't right

The words that you won't say
When you know we've lost our way

You shut the door as you're begging me to stay
You look away as the time slips away

The sound of the clock ticking on the wall
The only sound between us now

The fleeting glance as you slowly turn away
When you're already walking away

You walked away, the door closing behind you
You don't hear me try and call out your name

09/12 Direct Link
So, I don't mean to sound petty or anything but here's what I don't understand. For my birthday, for the first time in years, it fell on a weekend where no one had work. However, there was a soccer game that my family wanted to watch the same day as my birthday. So, thinking that my birthday would still be important, I tried to celebrate my birthday on my actual birthday. However, the second I brought it up, it was like the air became...still, like waiting for the pin to drop. Because, apparently, soccer is more important than someone's birthday.
09/13 Direct Link
-I fell in love with you because you loved me when I couldn't love myself. I am not sure who said this quote but I give credit to whoever said it. I think part of the reason why I fell in love was because they made it so easy. It was like we just fit, we didn't argue over everything (or anything, really), we could appreciate the same things while still liking different things. They saw me when I didn't even truly know myself and we've been through six long years of friendship. They taught me to appreciate myself and I thank them.
09/14 Direct Link
That person who enters your life out of nowhere and suddenly means the world to you -no clue who wrote this I still remember the day we met as if it was yesterday, not six years ago. They sat down next to me on the bus, their bag on their lap, on my first day of school in a new town. Later, I would find out it was their first day too. They smiled and introduced themselves and when it became apparent that I was the quiet sort of person, I remember their words. "You're quiet. That's alright. I was that way too." And we've been friends ever since.
09/15 Direct Link
I wonder if you'd ever understand how much of me belongs to you
-I'm not sure who said this quote
It's as if we are two pieces of a whole
There is me and then there is you
You are the air I breathe, the song that I sing
Everything that I do, I do it for you
There's a light inside of me, a fire in my soul
Though it burns bright, it did not exist before we met
Though you will never know, I am hopelessly in love with you
09/16 Direct Link
Missing you comes in waves
Tonight I'm drowning
-not sure who wrote this quote

And I'd chose you
in a hundred lifetimes,
in a hundred worlds
in any version of reality
I'd find you and I'd chose you
-The Chaos of Stars
unfortunately, though I would chose you every single time, without a shadow of a doubt, without a single regret, without a moment's hesitation, I still do not know if you would ever feel the same way. But that's fine. I'll love you anyways.
09/17 Direct Link
I think the weird thing about love, is how patient it is sometimes. It doesn't matter how many times you fall apart. It doesn't matter how many times your heart shatters to the point where you know you will never find all the pieces. It doesn't matter who it is or why. It doesn't matter how long it takes or if you're all alone in the way you feel. It doesn't matter how many second chances, how many late night calls, it doesn't matter how many times you try with someone else only to fail horribly. Love still waits.
09/18 Direct Link
I have always found it weird when people say I am one of the loudest people they know. Because, truthfully, I'm not. When I was younger, I started talking later than most children my age. I only talked when I absolutely needed or wanted to. When people are around that I don't know too well, I can hours without saying a single word. But, when I know people, it's like a switch is flipped and I don't stop talking...even after I have ran out of things to say. But, that doesn't mean I'm overly talkative in nature.
09/19 Direct Link
Tongue tied, tripping over every word
Stealing my breath away with every passing glance
Your gentle touch soothing my soul
Turning right from wrong, my gentle angel

Muttering half-truths but never what I mean
One step away, dancing around the truth
Keeping you on your toes, stringing you along
One step ahead but quickly falling two steps behind

Inside and out, you know me completely
Not a secret I can't hide so I don't try
But I hold the truth deep inside, where you can't find it
Scared to let you see what I can't say aloud

Tongue tied, tripping over every word
Muttering half-truths but never what I mean
One step away, dancing around the truth
But there's not a secret I can hide so I won't try
09/20 Direct Link
For you, who stood beside me
When I thought I was alone

For you, who ran with me
When the ground started crumbling beneath our feet

For you, who held me tight
When I was too scared to sleep at night

For you, who never gave up on me
Though I had given up on myself

For you, who braved the toughest storms
When the winds became too much to handle

For you, who figured me out
When I couldn't even understand myself

For you, who carried the weight for me
When I was so close to collapsing under it all

For you, who told it to me straight
And never tried to hide a thing
09/21 Direct Link
I watched as you fell apart where you stood
An iron mask slowly melting away
As the silence slowly overtakes us
And I realize what I've done

Silent words of apology
Creeping through the cracks

But here I stand, laying the truth at your feet
I'm coming clean, washing away all the fears
I'm not gong anywhere, I'm not running again
Tonight, I'm here to face down all our demons
And rebuild our castle once again
09/22 Direct Link
Part One I stare into the shattered mirror
Hazel eyes stare back at me
A childlike smile upon her face
Still so small and innocent, still so young

I listen to the voices echoing
Saying lies though I know it's not true
It'll be alright again if I could just forget
A childhood innocence secretly stolen

I taste the fear upon my tongue
Biting back words I die to tell
Secretly I know I never will
Though the words linger within my mind

09/23 Direct Link
Part two
I remember the look within his eyes
Warm blue eyes turn cold in the night
Things will never be made right
For I am frozen in fear of you, my friend

I scream into the darkness as
I stare into the shattered mirror
I listen to the voices echoing as
I taste the fear upon my tongue
I remember the look within his eyes
Goodbye, my friend, for I am not afraid
09/24 Direct Link
Loving someone who doesn't love you back is like waiting for a boat at the airport. Hopeless and disappointing.
-I'm not sure who this quote is by
One of the worst things that I have ever experienced was falling for one of my closest friends, knowing they would never feel the same. It's one thing to date someone and break up while you still have feelings for them. Because, then, at least you know what could have been. And I think that's what makes it worse. Despite how much I really like them, I don't get to know what could have been.
09/25 Direct Link
Loving someone who doesn't love you back is like reaching for a star. You know you'll never reach it but you just have to keep on trying. Because someday, who knows? It might fall.
-I'm not sure who said this quote
I reached for a star once and I realized something. It doesn't matter how far you reach, they remain just beyond your fingertips. But, I also noticed, that even though you're so focused on just that one star, there are billion out there that might fall instead.
09/26 Direct Link
So, after weeks of struggling to find a job, trying to come up with even more places to place an application with, and numerous job fairs, and a handful of job interviews, I have finally managed to get a job. The best thing about it, is the job I managed to get was the one I was completely unsure of. Everyone at the group interview had more experience, more this, more that than I did and I felt that I would not be able to be one of the best options. Thankfully, they decided to give me the chance. Yay!
09/27 Direct Link
So, I was at the store today and that old, familiar song started playing through my head "It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas." Everywhere I looked where nutcrackers, Christmas trees, ornaments...Christmas everywhere. At first, I thought maybe I had entered into an alternative world where Christmas was now celebrated in October. But, then, I realized, no, stores are actually getting people ready for a holiday three months away and completely bypassing at least two other major holidays. When I was younger, stores still waited for November before committing to the holiday. But, now, it's as if Christmas is the only holiday that still counts.
09/28 Direct Link
He can't see the smile I'm faking and my heart's not breaking
Cause I'm not feeling anything at all
And you were wild and crazy, just so frustrating
Intoxicating, complicated, got away by some mistake and now
-The Way I Loved You, Taylor Swift

I never understood how someone could love two people at once, or even simply date someone while still in love with someone else. But, suddenly, it makes sense. They do it because they hope that one day, if they truly believe it, they'll move on. Sadly, it doesn't work that way.
09/29 Direct Link
Sometimes you miss the memories, not the person

The past few years have shown me how much this statement is true. There are so many amazing memories from the past eighteen years, so many incredible people I have had the chance to meet. But, there also people, who no matter how many good memories we had together, I wouldn't turn back the clock even if I had the chance to. For instance, my first boyfriend, no matter how much I miss our friendship, the closeness we once had, the many talks about everything and nothing, I can't bring myself to miss him.
09/30 Direct Link
And if I fall and crash and burn
At least we both know that I tried
And as I crawl, there's lessons learned
Yeah they remind me I survived
And I've been hurt and I've been scarred
At least I know that I'm alive
And if I fall and crash and burn
At least we both know that I tried
-Crash and Burn, Lifehouse

I think one of the most important things that we learn in life, is no matter how many times we fail, there's always a chance that next time we'll succeed.