I found a piece of paper with this quotation scrawled on it while cleaning up today. It describes perfectly my own feelings for Her.
Had supper with everyone at Colin’s apartment. It was fun. Then we drank. Not much though. I found out from Tristan that Jocelyn has a boyfriend, or at least she thinks that she does, she wasn’t positive. I hope she doesn’t. I’d really like a sincere shot at her.
It’s definitely good to be back at school: So very many beautiful girls! Today I learnt that the guy/girl ratio is three girls for every guy. The Beach Boys would be proud.
I think maybe that’s why I want to take a train ride through the mountains so badly. To be able to just sit there for hours gazing out at the ever changing landscape. Lost in a world inside my head. The constant gentle rhythm of the rails lulling me softly to sleep.
Kids are cute. They have infinite opportunity: A life still full of possibilities. Sadly, from the time they are born, possibilities start to pass them by. The world's going to shit. That much is certain. I think it’s time we tore down civilization and let the ants have a go. It seems to me that the time for optimism has passed. We’ve failed. There’s nothing our precious technology can do for us now. I give the human race another 100 years. Tops.
Thought broken. Train derailed.
Eyes drift back to page. Study resumed.
Well of thought tapped; now capped.