I still don't know what i'm doing with my life. I'm still just going along with it now. I used to think "at least i know what i DIDN'T want to do" was good but now i think it's not going anywhere either.
Miss my Little Dragon, haven't seen him in 4 days. Our schedule times have changed. Now I may see him less. He's a busy child although he's only 4 and a half. Wish sometimes he could just go run around in the park or something. But he probably does that sometimes. I don't know.
I think my theory of milk-lovers being larger than non-milk-lovers is true. Like all my skinny friends drink milk but they don't really love it or anything. I, on the other hand, LOVE milk. I like the creamy cold taste. Would I give up milk to get slimmer? No, I don't think so. Milk's more important!!
Did a brain analysis quiz today. I'm predominantly right brained. And it also says I've piles of mess around me and I cant find anything if the position was moved from what I had remembered. This is completely TRUE. My goodness! A simple 20 question can tell so much about me. Amazing. Incredible. Fasinating.
Did the brain test quiz on my mom. She's a Lefty. I'm a Righty. Left brained people are more analytical than right brained ones who're more arty farty. But i don't feel as if i'm too much into the arts or anything.
I'm 60+% Righty though. And my mom's a 50%-50% visual-audio person. Haha! That's too perfectly strange isn't it? But i like my mom alot, she's fun!
I know i cant be with somebody who is so impatient with me, let alone live with someone like that the rest of my life, right? Sammie said she'd get me a gigolo for my 22nd birthday. I decided on a Josh Harnett type after i watched 40days & 40nights again.
"Emily's not lazy, she's just happy doin' nothin'."
I wish I could live my life like hers sometimes. Without a care. Telling people I don't like to "GET LOST" in their faces.
What are they doing? Making learn how to make life's choices and test our willpower by tempting us?
Went around getting people to fill up my survey forms today. Was a tedious and arduous task but I got it done. Now I gotta rush off! Dragon Time!
Ate a bag of pretzel with nacho cheese fillings. Very salty, somewhat sinful (240calories) but I felt better. Rather I wanted to feel better. It's not so bad… worse things could happen.
Drank 500ml of Weissbier with lemon just now. Trying again to relive my enjoyable days in Munich but it just didn't taste the same.
I broke a bowl of soup at work. SMASH! All the cream of mushroom was everywhere. And worse thing is – ON MY SHOES!! 1st thing I thought of were my shoes you know. And as soon as I could I went to clean them up. It's a me thing. I like ‘em clean.
Never thought i was. But maybe it's an impression i gave others. Like "proud", "arrogant".. don't really think i am but some people feel that i am.
Sometimes i wonder why i don't have a boyfriend too. But the gap between my ex and my previous ex was about 3 years, so maybe another 3 years?
Today a lady offered me a lift to the main road while i was walking out from the dragon's. Strange offer, i declined but it was nice. Needed to walk and clear my head anyway. Was feelin' pissed with the kid and situations.
I'm at this stage in my life where i'm thinking i don't need one at all. That's true i guess. I don't even know if i want one. Very skeptical and disillusioned. But i've no regrets about my past relationships and i'm mighty glad they're no more.
Yes, i do wish things could have been better but i'm happy the way i'm now. I like the way i am.
Think managements should really focus on their staff, be concerned for them emotionally, physically and mentally. Well, these people are your means of money anyway, they are the link to the customers. You gotta be nice to them. I believe well cared for staff are happy staff and they do good jobs or are happy doin' jobs for you.
I know there're those who simply binge and become overweight. Those who just love eating too much and become obese but alot of "big" girls are just born big. Hell, we too wish we weren't big sometimes you know.
All that teasing, "why are you so big?", "you shouldn't eat so much.", "have you tried dieting?".
Think everyone shouldn't be so judgemental.
The strange background serenity.
The clock that ticks relentlessly.
Unemotional, stark and plain.
What goes on in the minds that stay within this confinement?
Are they asleep? Do they ramble? Are they floating away into the soft cotton candy world of dreamland?
Are the eyes staring blankly into the flickering screens before them?
Caught in the virtual world.
Been feeling like this for a while. Not knowing what to do at all. I'm like a leaf in the river, just floatin' along. Eventually i fear i may sink and rot.
My body is tired but it does not surpass my mental exhaustion. Trapped in my own realm twarped by endless spears of the outside world forcing me into the cage of this life.
Later, went for arbitration discussion for tutorial, project and also negotiation discussion. Lastly the bloody economics lecture.
Horrid lecturer. I used a chair to keep the back door open. It was so freaking cold. She asked to shut it, I told her why it's open.
She told me "wear more clothes!!"
BITCH! I was wearing a T-shirt & knee length skirt! Think she's low EQ though she's a "scholar" and probably intelligent.
Something's not right.
A lurking feeling.
Something at the back of my mine, calling.
But i cant hear what it is.
I sense the presence of uncertainty and i'm on the brink of being overwhelmed.
If only i had the courage to pluck myself out of this calm unaltered mess.
To set myself free.
To be refreshed.
It's true about how people tend to remember unhappy incidences more.
in a way i think it's good training for me. Yes, this sounds warped. But through being screamed at, i know how it feels and i know how to behave to others if i was in such a situation.
"to avoid criticism, see nothing, hear nothing, do nothing, be nothing."
But i'm not nothing.
I ate KFC today. Actually wanted to have Chinese dumplings and noodles but the Q to get seated was so long i decided to change my mind. I didn't think of eating fried chicken initially until i walked by the shop and saw the poster on the door. Plus i was hungry.
Crispy greasy delicious fried chicken.
I hadn't eaten it in a LONG time. The meat was tender and juicy.
Forget about the bird flu!
I don't understand why.
I spoke some Japanese today. There was this cute old Japanese man at lunch hour. He gave me his strawberry ice-cream dessert. I like strawberry ice-cream. So it was good. We had some trouble conversing about the VIP discount so I used the minimal Japanese vocabulary I knew.
But he didn't seem surprised. I felt like he expected me to know Japanese or something. He spoke to me some parts in Japanese too.