Been drinking wine each night. Lost interest in writing. Food isnít exciting. Do not ever want sex again. Could easily accept a death sentence. Have done everything. Life is nice but death is inevitable and ok when you are past 55. The ex who died put a balloon on my friendís car asking her how her trip was. That was over 36 years ago. He always wanted what he couldnít have. Just splashed red wine on the wall, mirror, carpet, pants, shirt. Reversatol. Something like that. Supposed to make your skin younger. Red wine the skin saver. sad but blessed.