11/01 Direct Link
Sooo tired, just want to sleep.
And sleep and sleep and sleep, but it's Sunday.
No chance.
Time for football and Dorritos? Yes.
Time for manly grunts, and lot's of burping? Yes.
Is this game going to result in a killer headache for Manda? YES!!!
But that's alright.. I can deal.
I can handle the loud, obscene noises, and scent that makes my stomach curtle.
I can handle the foul odor, and excessive soda/beer drinking. (Boyfriend - soda. Dad - beer.)
Who am I kidding?
I've learned my lesson.
Never interupt guy's time.
Boys will be boys.
11/02 Direct Link
So tired.
Still, I just wanna cuddle up in my big, soft, cozy orange blanket and rest my eyes.
Not for too long, but just the right amount of time.
Enough to enjoy it without taking advantage.
Enough to slowly reach the wall between reality, and dreams.
Enough to visit briefly, and embrace the time I have, without getting lost within my thoughts, or drifting away completely.
All I need, is enough time to relax, think about random, unexplainable moments, and become a prop in my surroundings.
Just enought time to get that feel,
but not too much. 
11/03 Direct Link

Yesterday - today.
Today - tomorrow.
Ya digg?

So I've recently decided that my boyfriends brother looks like Shaggy. Down to the messy goatee, the thrashed hair, the green shirt, espically with how tall and skinny he is!

Or when I was working at the fair over the summer, there was a lady that reminded me of an otter. She was tall, had a VERY long neck, completely circle face, and her eyes were on the sides of her head.

Talk about more than a little creepy.

Linking random people to what they remind me of is grand.
Haha go try it.

11/04 Direct Link
Wake up, wake up, it's another day!!
Common, back straight, do your work, don't slack! your on a time schedule.
Dam* kids, never do anything right.

Haha, today I have a dentist appointment.
Whoo hoo hoo, I'm excited.
I can't wait to figure out if my mouth is the root of the excessive headaches.
Dear lord, I really do hope so.

And my achy breaky boyfriend is sick! Yea boii!!
Karma comes back on him fully everytime, but unlike him, I'll baby him, and make him the best chicken noodle soup in the world.
Men suck, Women are the best!
11/05 Direct Link
I sat in urgent care for 4 hours last night.
4 hours too many, if I may say so myself.
All because boyfriend is sick.
Ironically enough, though they don't treat the H1N1 virus (Swine flu), my boyfriend and I had to wear face masks throughout the 4 hours.

Upon leaving, we found out that we sat there the whole time just to get some cough srup, and nausea medicine. (which I already had at home).

I made him chicken soup, and bundeled him up in all of my warmest blankets.

He said that I'm the best girl friend ever!
11/06 Direct Link
Poor little Lizzy..
After going to my sick boyfriends house, and taking care of him, Lizzy came over.
The girl's only 18, she's pregnate, and lives with her boyfriend that's so caught up in himself that he was too busy partying last night to go home and let her in.
I felt horrible for her, but it was nice having her stay the night last night.
I enjoyed the company while everyone else was gone.

So we sat up and ate chili mac, and talked for a few hours.
I was really nice to talk and visit with her again.
11/07 Direct Link

The most common, overused, and underminded word in the english dictionary - peace.

While laying in bed last night, I was thinking about the war in Iraq. Nine out of ten people I know seem to think that the war should just end, and that peace is the answer to everything. My personal logic, is that no two contanents, countrys, or even states can get along until two civil people can. In order to gain such an affinity, the two singles involved must learn to meet eye to eye and understand that there is... (Continued on November 8th)

11/08 Direct Link
more to to it than selfishness. When negotating the bonds between two somewhat civil groups of poeple, you must take their needs into consideration, just as you would your own. If not, there will be major disagreements, resulting in war. War happens in many places other than just country to country, it is a period of such conflict that results in harm.
I believe that if people would just simply take that easy step off of their high horse, and trash their self centered ego's, consider people other than themselves, and learn respect is... (Continued on November 9th)
11/09 Direct Link
when our nation will meet the concept of peace. Until then, we will stay in the grief state that our poeple can't seem to escape.

"Our society is run by insane people for insane objectives. I think we're being run by maniacs for maniacal ends and I think I'm liable to be put away as insane for expressing that. That's what's insane about it."
-John Lennon

"One is left with the horrible feeling now that war settles nothing; that to win a war is as disastrous as to lose one
-Agatha Christie

Sad to say, it's as simple as it sounds.
11/10 Direct Link

The song I dedicate to you Shawn.
"Father of mine
Tell me where have you been
You know I just closed my eyes
My whole world disappeared
Father of mine
Take me back to the day
Yeah when I was still your golden boy
Back before you went away."

- Everclear

Shawn called me last night, for the first time in about 8 months.. I ignored it.

*text message*
Dad cell: Watcha doin
Me: Watching TV
Dad cell: Me too. How ya been?
Me: Just dandy
Dad cell: How's school?
Me: Good
Dad cell: Good, nice talking to you. Bye
Me: Late

Nice to know we see eye to eye.
Great relationship wouldn't you say?

11/11 Direct Link
Today is Vetrans day, NO SCHOOL!
I stayed home and spent the day with my little sister who also didn't have school. After sitting around and watching Sponge Bob for hours on end, we decided rain or shine, we are getting out of the house today!

So we bundeled up in the warmest cloths we could find, and headed straight to Scott School. After pretty much rolling around in the water, mud and bark chips, we started to head home, to indulge in two hefty mugs of hot chocolate... But on the way, we made new plans. (rest on tomorrow)
11/12 Direct Link
We found giant puddles! (which she accidentally stepped in) the first time. Then the little booger splashed me.

"oh it's on short one! you're goin' down!" I yelled.

Next thing you know, my 9 year old sister and I were having a full on brawl on the side of Brown rd. People kinda took a liking to the show I suppose because they were staring as they were driving by, and one person even stopped their car.

Once we finally made it home it was nothing but a race to the shower.
I won of course, little sisters are awesome!!
11/13 Direct Link
"Who's to say
What's impossible,
Well they forgot,
This world keeps spinning,
With each new day,
I can feel a change in everything,
And as the surface breaks,
Reflections fade,
But in someways they remain the same,

I wanna turn the whole thing upside down,
I'll find the things they say just can't be found,
I'll share this love I found with everyone,
We'll sing and dance to mother natures song.

I don't want this feeling to go away

-Jack Johnson

To me, this song means the world. I adore the fact that it publisizes all the positive aspects of life.

11/14 Direct Link
The baby is sick, my poor widdle brudder.
The kid has red lines on ethier side of his nose, all the way across his cheeks. He's completely congested, and when he talks it sounds like theres clouds stuffed in his lungs.

So Insted of going to the park, or playing outside like we usually do on Saturday nights while moms at the NA meeting, we cuddled up in Spiderman blankys, and watched The Mask, and ate pineapple. Then he fell asleep with me on the souch.

My little brother is my world,
if you can't already tell.
Get better Cody!
11/15 Direct Link
So I've always loved the idea of getting a mixed tape as a gift, but no one I've ever dated has been intelligent enough to figure it out.

So, with the dawn of the new "era" (technology).. I got the boyfriend a cheap-o little rinky dink mp3 player, that holds not only music, but pictures, video, and text on it too.

So it's a more digital, "mixed tape/ scrap book/ love note".

There's music that we listen to as well as what he has sang to me, pictures of places we have gone,  (The rest on tomorrow's date)
11/16 Direct Link
Things we have done, like carving pumpkins, and feeding squirlls, and not to mention face panting, and then the ever exclusive: "Remember Christmas 09'" love note from the girl to the boy.

I really hope he'll like it, I put alot of thought and consideration into it, and I want him to recognize it for what it is, memorys. Not just some cheap mp3 that his girlfriend bought him for christmas.

Which ever way it turns, I guess I'll still understand the hidden meaning, but I do hope it's appreciated on a little bit deeper level.

Merry Christmas to all!
11/17 Direct Link

Have you ever found something that someone left behind just to grab your attention?
Every now and again, while I'm on the bus in the mornings I find these little comic book type things.
At fist I thought it was pretty cool ya know, someone left it on the bus so I get free entertainment.
But once i read it I realized it was a church advertisement, and a pretty crule one at that.
It wasn't loving or heart felt at all.
I was crude, mean and almost even vicious.

Nothing I would have wished to read in the morning.

11/18 Direct Link
Sick.. Very very sick.
Okay, maybe not 'sick', but crampy. (which is worse) Sue me.
So I read, and read and read 323 pages and finished the 5th book in the House of Night series.

I was amazing, wanna know the complete cure for a hormonal teenage girl?

One: A great book, purely for distraction purposes.
Two: A half gallon of peppermint ice cream, just to stay healthy.
Three: And a million blankets and pillows piled in the corner of the bed, waiting to be snuggled.

Then it was nap time.
Oh the joyess event of sleeping in on weekdays.
11/19 Direct Link
Got there around 8:40am, and left around 2:00pm.
Wanna know what I did for those 5 hours and 20 minutes?
Talked to Edna, she's 101 years old, and turning 102 this April.
Amazing! eh?
I think it's just phenomenal how someone can be so coharent, and quick witted at such an old age.
In my eyes, she is like a time capsule; with everything she knows, and has lived through, every aspect of this woman just amazes me.
One say I wish I could be in her shoes,
after living an equally fullfilling life.
-Amanda Murdock.
11/20 Direct Link

Thank you India:

"how bout getting off these antibiotics
how bout stopping eating when I'm full up
how bout them transparent dangling carrots
how bout that ever elusive kudo

thank you india
thank you terror
thank you disillusionment
thank you frailty
thank you consequence
thank you thank you silence

how bout me not blaming you for everything
how bout me enjoying the moment for once
how bout how good it feels to finally forgive you
how bout grieving it all one at a time


the moment I let go of it was the moment
I got more than I could handle
the moment I jumped off of it
was the moment I touched down"

-Alanis Morissette

11/21 Direct Link
100 words... Hmm.
Well due to the fact that I just got back from a 9 day break from school, and that I'm completely awe strucken, I don't really have much to say. Or well, in better words, I don't really know where to start.
I had a grand time, lots of shopping, lots of family, lots of sleep, and LOTS of food. :)
My uncle came to town for about 5 days, my crazy aunt from my sisters side of the family came and made the best gosh-darn green bean casserole in all the lands.
I devoured it all.
11/22 Direct Link

Shopping, shopping, shopping!! ahh! :)
I usually hate games of the sort. I've never been one to enjoy standing in line just to pay for something I really don't need, but I made of day of it with me mama. We went big time Christmas shopping with her boyfriend for my little brother and sister. I got the baby boy a MONSTER SHIRT!! I'm sure he'll love it, he's such a little man. And my mom made a HUGE deal about getting my little sister a Nintendo DS, because she's wanted one for what seems like ages.. Hope she likes it.

11/23 Direct Link
Of course not!
She has to have the DSi

Mom: Hey Jordy, what was it you wanted for Christmas?
Jordan: A DSi
Mom: Well... Why? I thought you wanted a DS?
Jordan: Um no mom, I want a DSi.
Mom: Um, well why?
Jordan: Because they take pictures too.
Mom: Well what about a DS and a camera?
Jordan: No I don't want that.
Mom: Okay... why not?
Jordan: Because it's just easier mom. And way cooler.
Mom: Oh, well you better write Santa a pretty dam* long letter then, because he though you wanted a DS!!
Jordan: Okay mom, I will. :)
11/24 Direct Link

Boyfriend went on a quest -- to find his girlfriend the best Christmas present possible. You know what she asked him for? A bonzi tree, a tapastry, or a tea pot that whistles. Is he getting it for her? Well yes, even if it's the last thing that boy does. So he searches, and searches, and searches for this expensive little tree. But has no luck, or at least no luck under 120 dollars. Jeez... So my solution is - just get something else instead. I'll be happy etheir way. He says no, and that I deserve the best. I love him:)

11/25 Direct Link
Reading makes you smile, relax and gain an interesting vocabulary. Or at least for me it does.
I started reading this book called Boy girl boy it's by the same Author as a book I read a few weeks ago called Stoner & Spaz . I love the way it's written. Their not very descriptive, yet they are at the same time. It forces you to think and decide the fate of the characters yourself. I think the creativity the Author incorperated is absoutely amazing. I also think the roots of the story come from his past.
11/26 Direct Link

Do you know the way to San Jose? No? Well that makes two of us.
On a brighter note, I got to spend all day and night with my boyfriend. We played backgammon, battleship, and Disney scene it, while drinking giant cups of chamomile tea and hot choclate and sitting in front of the fire until around 3 in the morning.
I had a nice time. Then we got in a HUGE wrestling match and fought over the video game controller. (we both wanted to play Mario, but he won)
What a loser. But he still gave me a turn.

11/27 Direct Link
Black Friday!
I got's me a nifty labtop. It suits me well. I've been glued to the random "Goo world" and "Majong" games for last few days. With the exception of course for eating and going potty. And short breaks for more important things like writing my paper for school ;)
The only downfall so far is that I have to wait till moms next pay day to get wireless internet. :(
Oh well, I'm still happy as a clam with what I do have.
And can not wait until Christmas. I wanna get Mom something just as great.
I deffinatly will.
11/28 Direct Link

Mmmm, typing.
I started writing my story for the class project. though I think I'm getting a bit ahead of myself as far as the length of the story goes, I still think it will turn out alright. So for now, I will just continue on with where I'm at. I have quite a feeling that mine will take a bit longer than the reast of the people's in class though. Darn my need for intense detail. Oh well. Good work is patience right? Ha. At least I'd like to think it is.
Anyhoo, goodday to you all.

11/29 Direct Link
So I get to interview Edna Dutiot. I'm so excited! This lady absoutely amazes me. How fluent, quick witted, awake, and interested in everything as she is, is remarkable for her age. The young lady will be 101 in April, and has it set in her mind that there will be 101 trumpet players at her birthday party. I can honestly say I adore how much she emphasizes what life has brought her, and how much it has to offer to everyone else.
I could only wish that one day I will reach that age as well.
Hopefully with health.
11/30 Direct Link
Today was my first day of school, for almost two weeks. I did not want to get up, but at the same time, I loved that I would have something to do again. I mean, I'm 16. Everyone knows that there's usually other things I'd rather be doing that sitting at school. But at the same time, I love that I finally have something normal to keep myself occupied with again. I feel much more productive while working on something that's getting me somewhere, rather than sitting at home playing Mario Brothers with my boyfriend.
I still love games though.